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mm

One things for sure, I never thought I'd be here.

After everything that's happened in my life, it's taken me this long to realize that there is a light at the end of this dark tunnel. There is hope, there is love, there is a life to share with my creator. With our creator.

How naive have I been...

My holidays

Hmm, so these holidays have been good for me. Easter camp kicked off the holidays, then I basically just relaxed for the first week of the holidays, with a bit indoor cricket and soccer practice. The second week was a tad more intense as I worked a proud 42 hour week along with indoor cricket, indoor netball, and soccer. So yeah, I haven't had a whole lot of time to do homework and internal essays for school. In fact, I haven't done a thing. So tonight/early tomorrow morning I have the fun of trying to complete my essays!

And that's about all I wanted to say about my holidays!

Easter Camp

Easter camp was awesome!

Sure it had it's ups and downs, some of which I won't mention, but some of which I will :D

Spiritually, this Easter camp was the best for me. I felt as though I grew about 10 paces closer to God, and felt and still feel as though I have the ability to overcome any obstacles on my journey.

This year I enjoyed Satellite's music more than any other year. I think this was because I was worshiping more than trying to enjoy the songs. But also because they sang some of my favorite Satellite songs like "Let freedom ring" and "Who are you?" They also sang a new one which I thought was really cool.

Our youth group tent was pretty cool, nice place to chill out, chat, and listen to music.
We had a different group of Opawians this year, but we all got on relatively well :D

The speakers this year were really good. Christoph spoke really well, and was humorous as usual. The skinny white guy was really good too, and I really like the way he presented his sermons. I also thought he covered really difficult topics yet spoke really well on them.

Hmm...what else...

Oh yeah, I saw one of my good friends there, who isn't Christian, which was really awesome.
Cause yeah, he didn't seem the kind of person to be on a Christian camp, so good on him.

And to finish it off, the last night I helped out with security, so we chased and caught a few "grundy-runners" and told people off for staying up late. Gate security also caught lots of people trying to get through, but unfortunately we didn't catch the people letting off the sparkler bombs. To put it fairly though, they make a boring job fun.

So that's my Easter camp, I'm looking forward to hearing yours.

About a boy

Hmm, well I've been thinking about this for the past week, so I'll let it out.

Last Monday, first period at school, we were all informed of the tragic news that a year 10 boy at our school had committed suicide in the weekend. It struck us all pretty hard, I think. And I spent the whole of first period just thinking about what drove the guy to do it. It just made me really sad, to the point where I thought I was about to cry. I started asking myself what in his life could have been so bad, that he couldn't handle it any longer. I thought maybe it was because of what our school had or hadn't done to help, or notice that he was in such a state. I didn't know the guy at all, but from what I was told, his father had committed suicide in the same way 2 years beforehand, which must have really been hard on him. I felt that our Christian group at school could have done something to prevent it. I still can't understand and possibly never will how that boy felt, and how it'd messed him up. But I can't help but feel that much more could and should have been done to support him.

Earlier this year, one of my best friend's mother died. It was a really hard thing to go through, as I've known him since I was about 6, and knew his mother really well. I didn't really know what to say when I found out, but sent a card to him a few days later. I think that it's one of the hardest situations to be in, not knowing what to say, or how to say it. And the biggest problem is that most people don't say anything at all because of it. But I think we must comfort people who have lost someone close, we can't just ignore it, we have to support them and comfort them in their time of loss. The best thing they can have is the support of family and friends.

I can't help but feel this may have been what drove the boy I mentioned earlier to committing suicide. I think that when his father died it must have been a hard time for him, and he may not have received the support he should have. Suicide is a very serious thing, and I think a lot of people who have been in difficult situations have it on their mind. But it's never the answer, it only leads to more grieving for family and friends. I've kind of rambled on a bit, but I do want to pray for that boys soul. I pray that God has mercy on his soul, for he faced a situation in which he couldn't handle and that he has found the peace he couldn't find here.

Never ignore God

Often I pray for a certain wound to be healed, but it doesn't ever heal. I realized that God told me what to do a long time ago, I just ignored Him, thinking I could do it my way. It doesn't work like that. A famous band once said "sometimes you can't make it on your own." These words are so relevant to life and so true. Often we think if we go our own paths with a little assistance from God, we think things will work out best. This is what I thought and did for a long time, and sadly, up to this day, have still been doing. Well, it's time to change, because there is only one path we can take. God's path. we can't walk our path with God's help. We have to walk God's path if we want Him to help us.

Parachute!

Few days remain and I'm yet to start packing, but I'm really looking forward to seeing bands such as My Life Story and Thousand foot krutch. Oh yeah, and Detour180!! However, I heard some terrible news regarding the parachute cd and a parachute fanatic. It seems this unnamed person seems to be repeatedly skipping song number one; Move - Thousand foot krutch. A crime of the highest degree, you might say. My prayers are with this unnamed person.

Aside from that tragic news, I'd like to thank all the people who donated money and/or/are helping/have helped to send us up to parachute on Friday! Thanks to mum too :D